lets just fall down, tremble to the floor with the realisation of what could have been. I do hate the what ifs, but you are a shining example of a possibility that I could have. Just let go and live, dream and wish like everyday has a meaning and purpose. Fight for what you believe in and mostly fight for what you want and who you want in your life, because that’s what you did. I don’t know the ins and outs of your life and I doubt I ever will. But that saying goes for everyone in the world because no one knows everything about someone, or what happens behind close doors. sometimes its easy to put on a front and make a show, showing the world youre having a great time, when in side or behind the curtains they could be falling apart, but you just don’t know. The show might actually be true and I believe it to be true with everything I see about you. You fight, you motivate yourself everyday to get to what you want. Everydays a challenge and I’m proud that you achieve and are thankful for what you have. Youre the possibility, the happy spirit and that’s what I miss.
but selfishly is makes me sad, I don’t know whether its because I feel it could have been a possibility for me, or maybe it just makes me sad because I know I could be happy if I chose too but I never choose too. instead I constantly moan about my life or feel like a deflated balloon loosing hope and falling to the floor in defeat everyday. I don’t like the fact that we don’t talk, I know I’m not much of a conversationalist and I know communication takes work, with I’m rubbish at doing or sticking at. I just hate the feeling that our lifes are so separate and that we never take the time to stay in touch with one another. I miss a connection I guess I just miss you